Monday, August 31, 2009

Photo of the day : a departure

Models: Miss B. and Miss J., Film: Fuji 400
Style: Editorial Fashion / Sensual Portrait
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as
..... soon
as
you departure
from a norm
from a standard
as
..... soon
as
you
try
to be
you
fully
all
you
get
are
blank
stares
or
shallow
nods
and not
because
you are exceptional
nor because
you are not
just because
you don't fit
a conventional
category
so they have
no use
for you
so when in Rome
care not to what Romans do
or like
if you can handle it
for long
alone
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Cheers
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Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Photo of the day : one hour of red hair, red lips & green eyes

Model: Miss A., Film: Provia 400
Style: Editorial Fashion Portrait
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I am not excusing myself from this
let me truly see
who you are
who I am
if you care
if I care
is this killing us?
that you are an angel
if angels could exist
and I am blended in the gray area
which it does exist
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I have been thinking about you
for 16 years
maybe all my life
maybe just a day
I am an ethical beast
with no reflections in your eyes
as the result of my ethics
prevent me of existing beyond them
how mediocre
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I do not want to abandon you
I simply want to be with you
for an hour
as myself
with no care
how impossible
who would enjoy these complexes?
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polishing and polishing
these masks
with titles on them
so people can name you
recognize you
brand you
categorize you
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I don't recall her hair color anymore
nor her eyes
nor her lips
nor her touch
nor her taste
I can pretend to
and I can cater to the illusion
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I miss your red hair
your red lips
your green eyes
or
I miss your brown hair
your pink lips
your hazel eyes
or
I
miss
you
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I
have
to
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give my wings back
my desirable
for one last hour
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Cheers
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Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Friday, August 28, 2009

Photo of the day : innocence


Model: Miss A., Film: Kodak Professional B/W 400
Style: Editorial Fashion Portrait
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they grade it
by the degree of naivety
they compare it with being simpleminded
they always look and consider short cuts
is that the way to go?
where to?
where is that important destination anyway?
and when you got there finally, then what?
they under appreciate the small things
or perhaps they, themselves are too small to see
how big are these small things
maybe they are wrapped around into a seemingly complicated life
for very selfish reasons
maybe the importance of surface
is even less than skin deep
maybe a loss of innocence is also a loss of an important sense
the sense of being one with everything around us
maybe
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Cheers
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Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Photo of the day : suspended in this sanctuary

Model: Miss B., Miss J., Film: Ilford B/W 400
Style: Editorial Fashion + Sensual Nude Portrait
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stay alive
I see you
I can see you
just a little bit more
few more steps
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stay alive dear
let the moon follow these clouds
let it hide behind the hills
let it be another morning
just one more
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that golden sunrise
might never dare to show its face
if you won't be here
with me
anymore
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the shadows of branches
look like spiders' webs
as complicated as life
as simple as death
as honest as day
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distant voices
you who are mumbling things...humming...weeping
tell to me, the very reason
why can't we change the course
this once? only this once?
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what could be more hollow
than to face the time
without the love?
unloved, is it?
like a prisoner
suspended by one foot
in this sanctuary
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Cheers
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Los Angeles, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Photo of the day : the last falling star

Model: Miss B. and Miss J., Film: Ilford B/W 400
Style: Editorial Fashion / Romantic / Sensual Nude Prtrait
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the dizzying effect of sparks
in a silent darkness
like discovering a hidden scheme
behind closed doors
by touching wandering molecules of air
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it's just another show
let it hide
behind a big smile
of the august afternoon heat
contemplating on the illusion of summer
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there was a moment
when
everything seemed real
as real as a fairy tale to you
when you were five,
but that lingering moment
has sobered up long ago
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I'm dreaming
of a splendid tragedy
of admitting to everything
of drowning into the wasted heart
without a way out
without a need to escape
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it's the longest street in the world
with a giant parking lot
waiting at the end
with no empty spots left
for this falling star
the last falling star
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the sparks
those sparks
they just get brighter
as they get closer
to their imminent end
with no regrets
with no fears
with no expectations
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LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
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портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Three photos of the day : strange creature behind pink doors



Model: Miss B., Film: Kodak Ektar 100
Style: Editorial Fashion Portrait + Documentary/Street Photography

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strange creature
are you hidden in there?
behind those pink doors?
do you exist?
do we need a team of researchers
to qualify and rescue you?
let me offer you a house
come and live among us
as we might
bring out the best in each other
do you like TV? do you like drugs?
do you like fame or money? do you like power?
strange creature, don't be scared...
we'll accommodate you
as long as you give us, you
fully
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strange creature
if not fully, but please allow us to believe in you and your existence
and allow us to call you with your real name, happiness
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LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Sunday, August 16, 2009

A nude portrait of a 19 year old Russian model is not the right match for a war story...

Oil painting on canvas
Style: Surrealistic Realism
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was it hot?
it was hot
but it was getting cooler
just a little bit cooler
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he was lying down
in the corner of his little sand made house
in his dirty military uniform
sporting his dusty beard
holding on to a 20 year old Kalashnikov
pressing it tightly to his chest
just like his life was relying on it
was his life relying on it?
yes it was...all of its 24 years of it and the potential years to come
but there were no guarantees
that it (the old Kalashnikov) can actually save his life
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the night was almost there
well he was hoping for that anyway
so he could hide out for few hours and then walk back to somewhere safe
somewhere a bit more familiar
"how did I lose everybody?", he asked himself....or he must have
and he thought
"I hope she gets along with my mothe..."
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the explosion was deafening
I looked up after the moment was settled
I could see him
I could see his legs, still in his boots
but now 10-15 meters apart from his body
and their distance could've been
10,000 kilometer
it wouldn't have made any difference anyway
he must have been screaming
but I couldn't hear anything
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passing out
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he was drowned in his jello like dried blood, tears and sweats
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looking over the heel
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a single happy tree in the quiet horizon
in a landscape all resembling a nameless single color
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a dark bird flew away over my head
and all I could hear was
silence
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LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
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Saturday, August 15, 2009

Three photos of the day : Falling in love...



Models: Miss B. and Miss J., Film: Ilford B/W 400
Style: ( Editorial Fashion Portrait + Sensual Nude Prtrait ) / 2

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falling in love
doesn't start with understanding
it doesn't end with happiness
it doesn't promise longevity
it doesn't constitute balance
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it doesn't make any sense
it doesn't bring calm
it doesn't paint the sky in rainbow
it doesn't award you sympathy
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it doesn't mean much to anybody else
it doesn't curve the time in your favour
it doesn't cool off the fire in hell
it doesn't stop pain of growing
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it doesn't reflect moon in your palm
it doesn't shine like sun in your eyes
it doesn't whisper poetry in your ears
it doesn't swim in the lake of hope
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it doesn't run along side wild horses, to continue life
it doesn't fly over the valley of despair with eagles
it doesn't climb the mountain of difficulties with the help of gods
it doesn't free fall like a careless water fall to discover new meanings
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it doesn't begin when you want it to
it doesn't present you with pleasure when it is supposed to
it doesn't help you to become a better being
it doesn't stop you of making mistakes
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falling in love...
it
is
out
of
your
control
as
it doesn't follow your wishes, orders and commands
and it doesn't end
just because you want it to
not
even
close
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Cheers
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Wolf189
http://www.wolf189.com/
LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство


Thursday, August 13, 2009

Three photos of the day : Floating hearts



Models: Miss B. & J., Film: Provia 400
Style: Editorial Fashion Portrait

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It's very strange
why they have kept it a secret?
it's time
is it though?
"you two ready?"
"I will be
by midnight", she said
the dry grass adding textures to the shadows
of a lost old boot
laying there
with no purpose, but to create that shade
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let us dust the present
to see through the reflection of the past
while embracing future
hold on
hold on
She is dead!
I am dead!
We are dead!
the result?
soon thousands of strangers
claim to know her
to know me
to know us
in a useless dusty broken mirror
they call life
oh the acting talent they think
they posses
to what use?
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shoo bitterness
go away
as these souls won't be subjected to your shallow depths
as these forever ghosts
need not to be investigated by the impatience abyss
as these floating hearts
will live forever
in light
with no eulogy needed
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Cheers
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Wolf189
http://www.wolf189.com/
LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

a romantic nude conversational portrait

Film: Ilford Delta 400, Model: Miss A.R.
Style: sensual / romantic nude portrait
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carelessness
she said I love your art
I said what art?
she said let's not kid ourselves
I said let the records indicate the truth
she said photograph me
I said do you love me?
she said a decent heart shouldn't be fatalistic
I said you sweet little thing
she said I'd remember you forever
I said forever is the time of a blink, divided to zero
she said NO
I said do you mean N.ever O.k?
she said you hurt me
I said I don't mean to
she said feel the sensation of my skin
I said I am living it
she said I'll keep it all inside
I said you would be stealing my space
she said face to face
I said distill me into a song
she said you devastate me
I said I am devastated naturally
she said this multileveld enigma ends to nowhere
I said I know, join me?
she said introduce me to you
I said I am you
she said you criticize my fear
I said peel this surface, you would see
she said let's rebel with me
I said there is not much protest left in me
she said I am you?
I said you were...not anymore, you are better than me
she said are you pulling a "it's not you, it's me"?
I said I told you, "you are better than me"
she said you give me a headache
I said anything is better than a heartache
she said can't you be just a happy bubble head?
I said can't you see that I am not much more?
she said I have to say goodbye
I said you said goodbye before ever saying hello
she said I don't get you
I said maybe because you read too much into it
she said you murder English with your so called poetry
I said I am a serial killer that way
she said you think you are better than others
I said stop flattering me
she said you are too much
I said full of myself?
she said do you remember that rainy night when love was in the air?
I couldn't say anything, anymore
.... and I cried, secretly.
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Cheers
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Wolf189
http://www.wolf189.com/
LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство

Saturday, August 1, 2009

180 Magazine: "Reflection"

Miss A., Film: Ilford Delta 400
Style: Sensual Editorial Fashion Portrait
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"Reflection" is a series of sensual editorial portraits which is being accompanied with a short poem.
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You can view the full story in 180 Magazine:
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http://180mag.ca/0908/wolf/wolf.html
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Cheers
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Wolf189
LA, Las Vegas, Phoenix, NYC
волк189 фотография
портрет, чувственный, изобразительное искусство